I'm currently reading a book about cognitive therapy and eating. It's The Beck Diet Solution, subtitled something like "Think Like a Thin Person!" and is so obnoxiously hot pink that I can't bring myself to read it in public. I picked it up for $6 in the bargain section at Chapters a few weeks ago, but have only recently cracked it open.
The book is supposed to act as a companion for whatever diet you chose. It's full of exercises and pledges and checklists to help you retrain your fat person brain. So far, some of the tools have been great, like making a list of the reasons I want to lose weight, and keeping it in my purse so I can review it before I decide I really, really, really need a cookie.
It's working so far - I didn't need a cookie. I needed a walk around the office to cool my jets and clear my head.
But the introduction of the book is really depressing. It basically declares my biggest food fear and the thing that most often leads to a complete diet derailment.
You can never, ever, ever eat whatever you want, whenever you want, in the quantity that you want, if you want to be thin and stay thin. Thin people suffer for their thin-ness, even the ones that are 'naturally' thin. It's about choices - and sacrifices. Sure, the book says, your skinny friend might be chowing down on a banana split right now, but she's going to suffer for it later, either at the gym or at her next meal.
This is depressing. I LOVE to eat good food. I love to cook good food. I love trying restaurants and eating whatever I want on vacation and delicious treats. But in the week since I read that statement, I realised that it's actually helpful. It's not healthy to eat fried fast food or poutine for lunch every day. Being able to eat whatever I want, whenever I want is never going to happen. If I sacrifice and sweat only to reach a 'reward' of falling off my diet as soon as I've reached my goal, I'll be back here again in no time. The sooner I realise that and learn to make moderation and healthier choices my BFFs, the better.
Are you depressed by this idea? Have you read this book?