Guys, I'm feeling a bit frustrated.
I set my July goals (see sidebar for a refresher) when I was getting ready for our holiday and feeling super in love with the 30 Day Shred. Well, a month has passed, we're nearing the end of July and I'm not so much in love with it anymore.
Level 1 was hard, but I felt empowered doing it. I could actually track my progression in the number of pushups I could do and whether I could complete the whole thing without stopping. I could see results. I felt awesome.
Level 2 is harder. WAY harder. There is no end to the plank position - plank jacks, plank twists, plank i-hate-you-so-freaking-much. I've often fallen into the "I Can't" trap when it comes to fitness. I can't do pushups. I can't run. I can't swim.
I have been pushing myself this time. Not so hard as to hurt myself, but still. I've tried a lot of new things, scary things like Crazy Lady Yoga and running outside. The other day I doubled the length of time I spend on the elliptical, up to a full hour. I'm going to this intense Zumba class. I haven't let myself say "I can't" - frankly, I haven't even let myself think it.
I have five workouts left to complete my goal of finishing Level 2 of the 30 Day Shred. I know I CAN - I'll have to do it pretty much every week day between now and next weekend - but I don't know if I want to. I'm just not feeling like I'm getting anywhere with it. It's hard, and it's intense, like Leve 1 - but I'm not seeing any progression. I'm not feeling empowered. I feel a little defeated, actually. I have trouble with the plank position, with walking pushups. I'm scared of Level 3.
I committed to finishing the DVD. I don't want to feel defeated by a workout tape. I'm seeing results. I dread doing it. I set a goal, I can meet it. It's not like the world will end if I quit.
What would you do?