Saturday, March 30, 2013

Back on track

I got up this morning and went to a different weight watchers meeting.

The leader was cheerful, the room was full, I was much more inspired. And, I was down 3.2 lbs, the exact amount I'd gained over the past 2 weeks of illness and vacation indulgence. I feel awesome.

The leader ended the meeting by encouraging us to spend the week tracking our accomplishments, thinking more about the things we did do than what we did not do, and most importantly, to show ourselves love.

This is a message I really needed to hear today. This week wasn't an easy one for me. Last weekend I had a terrible full-length-mirror experience at the mall where I caught my reflection and felt terrible. I felt overwhelmed and like I was pushing a rock up a hill.

I certainly wasn't showing myself any love.

So, in addition to tracking, staying consistent, and being accountable, I'm going to try loving myself a little more this week. I'm going to celebrate a little more when I succeed and review what I could do better when I slip up.

None of this is new, but I just really needed to hear it today.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Check in

I'm just checking in. I feel awesome. After work today I hit the treadmill and, using my 'at my own pace' approach, completed my C25K workout for the day. I actually found myself looking forward to it!

I picked a healthier lunch option, tracked everything I'm eating today, and got some activity in. I feel really together, in control, and happy.

Even despite the fact that I had onion rings and beer for dinner last night ;)

Monday, March 25, 2013

Plodding along

A couple of weeks ago I had posted on the Weight Watchers message boards about feeling quite overwhelmed by the running program. If I felt like I couldn't run for 90 seconds without dying, how would I ever run for 30 minutes straight? Or run five kilometres? It seemed to me an insurmountable challenge.

I have amazing family and friends who are runners. One of my Aunts ran the New York Marathon to celebrate her 50th birthday! But I don't really know anyone who is quite overweight and runs. I felt like maybe I was being foolish, thinking that I could really be a runner and be overweight. Maybe I should stick to walking until I've lost 30 lbs, I thought. I can't really do this.

But I got some tremendous advice, from other women who, like me, started running while overweight. A lot of them started when they were nearly the same weight that I am now. And that was encouraging. (I like a benchmark!)

Poster after poster reminded me that I can do it. It's a mental obstacle, more than a physical one... but when it is a physical one, maybe I should consider changing my pace.

I wasn't sprinting, by any means. The speed I'd set the treadmill at was probably a leisurely, comfortable pace for most runners.

But I had forgotten that I'm not most runners. I'm a beginner.

So I slowed down. And it feels less impossible now.

I took almost two weeks off due to travel and another stupid illness, but I hopped back on the treadmill today. I'm still sick, but I'm tired of feeling sick and hopeless and sad about something that is within my power to change. I decided that I'd go slow, and if it got too hard (you should picture me with some kind of snot-bucket strapped to my face) and I couldn't breathe, that I would just walk.

I slowed down, and I did the whole workout, and I know I can do it again. I believe in myself. And I didn't before.

So thanks, Ladies of the ww message boards. This tortoise thanks you for your stellar advice. I might not win the race, but at least I'll be in it.

Sunday, March 24, 2013


This month (like the two before it) seems to have sprinted to a close and left me sitting in the dust. I swear it was just yesterday that I was packing up Christmas decorations and Gary was taking the lights down, but it seems to be Easter already.

I've been struggling a bit. Obviously, consistency is an issue for me. I make goals, then don't make achieving them a priority.

They say that writing your goals down helps--in fact I've heard that a goal not written down is simply a wish. I can say from experience that wishing oneself thin doesn't work, so I guess I'll try a new method.

I also do my best work with incentives, and projects. I like to master skills, or at the very least, learn new things. So, as I mentioned, I'm once again on the Couch to 5K track, and this time, a wonderful friend managed to convince me to sign up for a 5k run at the end of June.

That means, I actually have to do it. I have someone depending on me. I have encouragement. And support.

So here's my goal, in all it's specific-measurable-attainable-realistic-timely glory...

Be able to run (no matter the pace) 5 kilometers by June 29, 2013.

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Saturday Salads

One of the new year's resolutions I made was to eat more salads. I didn't grow up eating salads with dinner except on special occasions, unlike the family of my friend Candice, who ate salads every day. Her mom used to make great fun of me for not liking salads and trying to avoid eating them when I stayed over for dinner.

We did pretty well in January, eating a salad with dinner most nights of the week. I've also discovered the joy of making just a salad for dinner, but a nice one.

I bought a new cookbook a couple weeks ago and last night I tried out a simple but delicious recipe.

The recipe called for grilling the salmon, but I baked it with some lemon pepper seasoning, served it over spinach and then made a citrus honey-mustard vinaigrette. With some fresh oranges, it was delicious.

Saturday, March 2, 2013

on top of the world

In my weight watchers meeting on Thursday night, we talked about the importance of setting activity goals. The usual answers were suggested - schedule it in your calendar. Make it a priority. Be accountable and exercise with a partner.

They're all great suggestions and I believe that all of them can work. Except for me, right now, I need something else.

I started a new job 3 months ago and I'm still in the learning curve. I schedule my exercise times in my calendar, yes, but quite often I get into a project or called into a meeting or stay late to figure out what I've been asked to do and I miss it. I'd say it's 40% of the time that this happens, and I know that things will eventually level out, but for now, it's a challenge.

My favourite time to exercise is during my lunch break. I find it breaks up my day, gives me an hour to refocus and provides an energy boost for the afternoon. Because the gym is *in* my office, it should be easy. All I need to do is take the hour and go.

But the gym is really busy at 12, and quite often I work through lunch or have a lunch meeting.

I seem to have an excuse for everything, don't I? And that's what I realized. I have to make activity a priority because it makes me feel good, it helps me sleep better and balance my emotions, and it's absolutely key to weight loss and good health.

So yesterday, when a spot in my calendar opened up and I wasn't too busy, I hopped on the treadmill over my lunch break. I finished my last workout of the first week of Couch to 5K and I felt amazing.

At that point I felt like I could conquer the world.

Classic post-workout sweaty locker room selfie

I took that drive back to my desk and knocked out some really good work,especially considering it was Friday afternoon and it had been a crazy week. I am positive that every single employer out there would be thrilled to give their employees that hour for that kind of result. I know my employer would - but as a newbie, I feel like I just need to get the "go ahead" to make it happen on a regular basis!

I made myself a priority, I found the time and it felt awesome. The challenge will be keeping it up - but I hope that I can remember how amazing I felt and use that as motivation to make myself a priority.